This has been a big year for me spiritually. I'm always amazed at the Lord's pattern for growth in our personal lives; it seems to come in fits and spurts, always at the time we least expect it. For me, the growth this year seems to have started with being called to play the organ last year, but it has continued in unexpected ways.
So, about playing the organ. When the bishop first called me to be the ward organist this time last year, it was very overwhelming for me. I knew how to play about 10 hymns, and I had only played the organ two times before. It was the first time I ever wanted to turn down a calling, even though I never would. My problem with playing the organ wasn't just with a lack of skill, it was also a battle with my own perfectionism. I hate to appear less than competent in front of others, and I knew that there would be a growing process. It takes a lot for me to make mistakes in front of others, and playing organ forced me to make mistakes over and over again in front of the entire ward.
Heavenly Father, in his infinite wisdom, knew that I needed to get over my fear of looking imperfect. This lesson was incredibly important for my spiritual growth, and this calling was the perfect medium for me to flourish. Now that I'm finally feeling comfortable with playing the organ, it's time for me to move on. Such is life. The faithful never get to be too comfortable for long- there's always another lesson the Lord is eager to teach them.
Now I'm going back to primary, which is incredibly ironic. Two weeks ago, speaking in church (another activity that stretches me spiritually), I told the story of learning to play organ and missing my calling in primary. Turn out that the bishop already had the switch in mind. Cosmic irony at it's finest!
I'll be teaching Max's class, Sunbeams, for the time being, which is going to present its own unique set of challenges. The Sunbeams are a little nutty, in a good way! They'll keep me on my toes for the time being, but the bishop hinted that I may not be in their for long. The only person who really knows is Heavenly Father, and I'm sure He'll let me know his intentions when the time is right.